Self Expression
Friday, April 23, 2010 / 3:05 PM
I have a tendency to express myself more on the internet, then in reality
I don't know why this is.
I'm hoping it's not a bad thing
Sometimes I feel like if I open my mouth I'll start speaking nonsense, I'll start admitting things that no one should know. I only wish for everyone to know my secrets, for everyone to know all the monsters that tear within my insides, crawling out wishing to escape. Maybe if they knew, the would understand, maybe they would care. Those day, when I feel like I can't contain anything inside me, I sleep. I sleep to escape into a thoughtless world where he loves me, where she is still my best friend. I wish to scream to the world, out my window, in the parking lot,. I wish to scream, "I am here and I am not alone." But some days that is all I fear. I fear of being alone, I fear for never finding someone to stay around and appreciate every once of my being, I fear for never finding love. I just wish I could get something right, just once. I wish I could leave this city and live in a small cabin in the woods with the one I love. No problems, no money issues, no work, just love. holding us together like the trees that will surround us.
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Understanding
Friday April 23, 2010 / 6:00 PM
Sometimes I feel like if I open my mouth I'll start speaking nonsense, I'll start admitting things that no one should know. I only wish for everyone to know my secrets, for everyone to know all the monsters that tear within my insides, crawling out wishing to escape. Maybe if they knew, the would understand, maybe they would care. Those day, when I feel like I can't contain anything inside me, I sleep. I sleep to escape into a thoughtless world where he loves me, where she is still my best friend. I wish to scream to the world, out my window, in the parking lot,. I wish to scream, "I am here and I am not alone." But some days that is all I fear. I fear of being alone, I fear for never finding someone to stay around and appreciate every once of my being, I fear for never finding love. I just wish I could get something right, just once. I wish I could leave this city and live in a small cabin in the woods with the one I love. No problems, no money issues, no work, just love. holding us together like the trees that will surround us.
Airplanes
Tuesday April 27, 2010 / 10:17 AM
Can we pretend that airplanes, in the night sky, are like shooting stars. I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now. Can we pretend that airplanes, in the night sky, are like shooting stars. I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now. Yeah I could use a dream or a genie or a wish. To go back to a place much simpler than this.